No bunny til some bunny loves you....

I made Amber a lil bunny back in October for her birfday.
Complete with scarf!

Nightlight.

I sit here for hours.
I feel like I am searching for an answer with out a question.
Like something will just appear like that idea light bulb in cartoons.
My thought bubbles are empty, oh but they keep coming.
Something deep inside is fighting to come out.
I'm pushing to keep it in.
It is my own personal boogie man.
He almost never shows his face until I am alone.
I can run and tell people he is there, but no one sees it.
Who is going to tell me he doesn't exist?
Who can tell me he isn't real?
Look under the bed and in the closet.
Turn out the lights.
I am scared.
You can only hide under covers for so long.
You can only hold your breath for so long.
I need a nightlight.

Lost Child

Everyone had warned me that she was crazy.
She would sleep with or suck anything.
She got naked on couches in rooms full of strangers.
She was so young and a recovering heroin addict.
They left me alone with her on the porch.
She asked my name, I told her.
She told me her friends suck, that they never call.
She asked me if I have ever felt like I just didn't fit in.
I felt like saving her.
Then I felt like I wanted nothing to do with her.
Which made me feel horrible.

I am always ok...

Sometimes things change everything you thought you knew.
Sometimes they drag up old emotions you thought you were past.
I am questioning my strength.
I am questioning my coping.
I am always ok...as long as I don't stop to think.
I am always ok...as long as I go with the flow.
I am not sure where I am meant to be.
I am pretty certain it isn't here.
Something is missing.
I just want to be happy.
I am always ok...

Nose in a book....

Shelfari.com

This website is pretty neat.
You can track what you've read, what you are reading and what you plan on reading.
You can score the books and add comments.
You can add friends.
Because you know, there are others like you.

but where?

Forget to breathe.
Wind, warm sun, the rain.
Everything reminds me.
Everything.

I lost what I thought I knew.
Somewhere.
Between here and there.
Somewhere.

Step back. Breathe.

Where did your patience go?
Step back. Breathe.
When did your walls fall?
Step back. Breathe.

It's too easy to imagine.
You're forgetting so much here.
It's to hard to forget.
You're imagining to much here.

Where did your sensibility go?
Step back. Breathe.
When did being realistic fail?
Step back. Breathe.

Your thoughts are wild here.
It seems to be everything.
Your dreams are crazy here.
Everything can't be what it seems.

Step back. Breathe.
Mouth clamped.